I just, you know, and this is being really honest,
like I don't enjoy living.
I don't enjoy it. I don't enjoy things anymore.
I don't, you know, if someone can come over and
lay in bed with me and talk like you have
and like a girlfriend of mine did the other day,
the one that we talked about,
but like, that's enjoyable. I enjoy that.
But if someone's like, let's get up and go for
a walk and or let's go get a coffee or
I'm like,
I don't enjoy that process.
You know, I did the thing,
you know, the thing on the,
the television thing. That was like the hardest day of
my life.